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As a kid, there was this candy I loved beyond words.
it was individually packaged, shaped like round tablet medicine
it tasted like milk! 
or at least, that's what other people would tell me,
it was hard to tell from the taste
but I remember a distinct feeling of bliss and joy
which I'd only get when eating this candy
there was something peaceful and sensible about the experience
far above just tasting nice

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I'd talk to my friends about them
about how they were by far better than any other piece of candy
but they'd never agree
I'd always find myself in disbelief at them
It seemed so obvious that they were wrong
almost objective
that I'd find myself assuming they were lying to me

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Sometimes I'd spend hours thinking about them
just imagining what it felt like to eat them
I'd draw them, I'd paint them
I'd make up little lullabies about them
Their round white essence really meant something to me

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I had a dream once
I was on my balcony and I could see in front of my house
The sky was a pleasant light gray
the plants around me had a bleak green color
so as to not make themselves too noticeable
and my mom was there
and without saying a word
she passed me this candy
with a subtle bright smile on her face
and I ate it
and it tasted just as good as the real ones
and chills went up my spine

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Another time I was going to sleep
and something unusual happened
something which i only recall ever happening twice to me in my life
I got some sort of not-asleep but almost asleep hallucinations
I could see the small night light in the corner of my room
A warm orange
When suddenly my mom appeared, almost like a ghost materializing, 
and again offered me some of this candy
This time however,
i couldn't move my body
as i tried to speak and accept her offer
my voice felt weak and i couldn't get a sound out
my body as well felt so weak i couldn't move it
although i was trying with all my might to reach my little arm out
she disappeared before i could do anything else
nevertheless, i still felt happy about the fact that she'd offered one
even if i didn't get to enjoy it fully

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Growing up I'd sometimes think about them again
but I couldn't recall their name, so it was hard for me to look for them
not that I was actively trying to, I'd just let it go along with many other things
I would always think that I had to taste one again though
I couldn't not, I was just confident I'd eventually stumble into them again
More recently I started mostly living in college, far from the house I grew up in
And so, when I was going shopping for groceries
I saw on the shelf a packet of them
They looked the exact way they'd always looked
The branding didn't change, nor the name, nor the logo
And for a moment I was filled with an unexplainable joy
The bliss you'd usually only feel when you find something for the first time
now eternalized and alive and vibrant
for once

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I bought the bag of candies
and i stormed to my room to try them out again
to travel back in time to how i felt the first time i ever ate one
to finally feel it again
to remember as intensely as i could
.
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.
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they taste alright
now i have to finish this bag

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Thank you for getting here
I want you to know a couple of things
I never create out of spite
I love what I create and I only create sincerely
I don't expect many others to love it
I hide no deeper meanings and no higher ambitions
What I create is complete on its own
And I'm usually just as surprised by the result as anyone else may be
I create in a freeing way, radically unwilling to put my creation over my wellbeing
And when I share it, I never aim to make everyone happy
and i often don't
but if there's a single person
who likes it and understands why i made it
in a sincere and happy way
then I've reached everything I wanted to reach and beyond
And if that person doesn't exist
Don't worry, I'll still be happy :)
